Damn, I'm whiny!

I haven't written here for a few months. I've come to realize that I use this blog mostly to just bitch and vent about Cleveland. Its honestly not as bad as I make it sound. Most of the time its rather nice. I think I just have days I dislike it because I haven't seen my family or friends from home that I grew up with since Christmas, and work so much and such stupid hours that I have no life. Wake up, work, come home, eat, go to bed. SO exciting!

So this is just the disclaimer that I'm honestly not as miserable as I probably sound. Just some days, every now and then, that are getting farther and farther apart.

In other news, I went to Mexico a few weeks ago. It was fun.

I can't shake myself out of this funk I'm in. I just miss home and my friends and my family so much, and I can't find anything like them here. I can't be myself here. I miss being able to call up someone I've known since middle school and having coffee with them. I hate hearing about all the fun activities my friends are doing without me back home.

I wish I had a home. Miami isn't home anymore and Cleveland isn't home yet. I don't know if it will ever feel like home.

I miss being happy.

Spring hasn't sprung, but its... springing?

I'm beginning to understand why they say here "If you don't like the weather, wait five minutes." I'm also beginning to understand why they say that this year has been really, really weird in regard to weather.

Let's take this week as an example:

We started out with beautiful temperatures for a few days -- we even hit 70 one day! It was wonderful, despite the earthquake on Monday. Yes, apparently they have small earthquakes in Cleveland (technically a little outside of it).

The weather started to get a bit nastier, and we had rain on Wednesday. Wednesday night: a tornado. That night's rain turned to freezing rain, and then sleet, and by the time I woke up to go to work, we had an inch of snow on the ground.... WHAT??? Also, freezing rain can sometimes make big branches or power lines fall from its weight. As I was getting out of bed, I heard a very loud crack, and heard Dan, in the kitchen, yell "OH MY GOD!!" I ran out, and my neighbor's giant weeping willow tree had fallen over the fence onto our garage. The cars weren't in it, thank goodness, but I'm still mourning that tree... it was beautiful!

Friday: It wasn't supposed to snow, but it started to on my way to work, and continued all day.

I haven't been outside today, and I'm scared to look out the window. What's next, a hurricane?

All the same, spring is definitely on its way. I've been finding blooms and new growth in places around our yard. Hurray!

Here, have some pictures

The tree incident:




Freezing rain:




The first buds of spring on our tree:




No idea what these are, but they look like blooms of some sort. Fooled into growing in the warm days and then being covered with snow. Nature is mean!

I give up

I give up. I hate Ohio today. I manage ok most days, but today I can't take being so far from my family, from my childhood friends, from tropical weather. I miss everyone so much it hurts. My toes haven't been properly warm since October, when I sadly stashed away my sandals to collect dust in the box lovingly labeled "Summer clothes". I don't CARE that its been a "mild" winter. Its been a mild winter for Clevelanders, not for a Miami transplant who lives in Ohio by some sick twist of fate. And I just might tell the next northerner who makes fun of me and reminds me how much worse it will be next year when we aren't so lucky to have a "mild" winter to just fuck off.

Like I said, I can take it most days. There are just a few days when I can't, and this is one of them. Today I can't stop telling myself that I just want to go HOME. And today home isn't Ohio; it's Miami.

My God, I just want to go home. HOME HOME HOME. Miami.